Redeemed

Poem... I don't want to be stuck, hitting a wall over and over. I want to surrender to you God, and give you my all.  Lord, please help me to rise up! Give me the strength to face each day. With a passionate love for you, let my face glow in a dead giveaway. Father, I belong to you. I am my Beloved's and He is mine! You have set me apart to you. I am no longer my own. God I want to see you seated high on your throne. You are praised among the nations, filled with glory and honor. Let me see your face my King! God you are my first love! Let me not chase after another. Help me to give myself fully to you. Hold me in your arms Lord. I love you so much and I praise you God, the Almighty, my Redeemer!  Amen.    

Fish out of water?  Poem... Sometimes I feel like a fish out of water. The air gets hotter and hotter. I cannot breathe! God I need your grace! I need time to think. My world is spinning so fast. Sometimes I feel so distracted and confused. I long for the simple things in life, like riding a horse or feeding a hungry child. Please open up my eyes to see the beauty that is around me. Give me the strength to follow your heart and throw off everything that hinders. I love you so much God. To you be all glory forever.  Amen.  <3

Poem:  O, restore my sanctity... Please God, Fill me with something new, a love attack is long overdue. With this world I am through. Oh God, I'm desperately longing for you! Turn my heart to praise you-- whether I'm up or down, smile or frown. I want to praise you! God fill me with your joy and glory! Help me to see your purposes for me. And please restore to me your sanctity, that I may feel peace again. I love you God.  You're number 1.  Amen. 

Lately has been hard. I'm in college.  We just had mid-terms, and it was good to have a mile marker so to speak.  There has been some hard stuff at home and it's hard to realize that you really could lose someone at any time.  But that also makes me remember that I need to rely on God and keep others in His hands.     Also today I went to Timber Bay to hang out with the girls at our outreach.  We watched a movie called "Amish Grace"  It's based on a true story of when there was a shooting at a small Amish school.  It was so sad.  Those little girls got killed and the Amish people chose to forgive.  It was really convicting because I get mad at God when things go wrong in my life and it's just little things.  I just want to get over that.  I need to take time for myself and hang out with others so I don't focus on myself.  I just want to be grateful and focus on all the blessings God has given me.  I don't want to s...

Poem (from June 2012): I'm trying to clear my head. I'm thinking of sweet sage and rock candy. So many little things go unnoticed. I think without the trees we couldn't breathe. We take so much for granted. Clean water: it is a life source for us, as blood through our veins. Yet we hardly think of our abundance. There are thirsty, crying souls! They need help! They need the renewing hope of Christ and good news.  They need real water and the water of eternal life. Lord, may we act and work justly! Let us pour LIFE into the ones in need! May our hearts be filled with gratefulness! We need a deep connection to you God. I pray we won't be satisfied by bread and water alone, but that we would feed on your Word. Let us be strengthened and encouraged by your grace and providence. May your abundance in our lives flow into the lives of those around us.  Let us overflow from YOU our source! May the Son shine in His reign! Thank you God for your ...

Lord, show us your love again and again.  Return us to the joy of our salvation! Poem: Heaven is our destiny. May we learn to rest in thee, O God! My heart overflows from the thought of your love for me. You make me strong and beautiful from the inside out. Lord, you've showed me that there's so much more to life than my cares and worries.  Show me your glory! When I give my worries to you, you take care of them. You bear the weight and show the way. You are the eternal God. I have an eternal destiny; in your heart, in your love. May I be a help in giving that to all. Lead me strongly God. I love and praise you Lord, my love.  Amen. --end-- that one's from like June of 2012.  

Hello.  I hope you're doing well. I'm having a good day, but I'm kind of tired and stressed.  I still have homework to do for tomorrow--not too much. I'm listening to how He Loves Us by Kim walker and it's really good. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_GFIJXWXiyI   I just need to soak in God's presence.  This is the one that I heard all the time and we sang in Panama. We are never the same after we encounter the love of God. Lyrics to How He Loves Us  : He is jealous for me Love's like a hurricane, I am a tree Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory and I realize just how beautiful You are and how great your affections are for me. Oh, how He loves us so Oh, how He loves us How He loves us so. (x2) Yeah, He loves us Whoa, how He loves us Whoa, how He loves us Whoa, how He loves. (x2) We are His portion and He is our prize, Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eye...

I'm in college!!!  I made it through my 1st week!! It's been a lot of adjustment, but I feel so at peace right now.  I love it here!  It is a really good place for me to be right now and I think I will always cherish the time I've spent here.  : ) The people are really nice, I like the food variety, they aren't super strict but they expect us to be adults and act appropriately.  I love my classes.  The teachers are super great and caring.  It's like things are finally falling into place where I don't feel the burdens of the world and loneliness all the time.  I feel like I'm accomplishing a major milestone in my life and I know the things I learn are going to change my life and also I'll have some really good friends.  I love that it's small here, it's like intimate.  But we can still go off to town and do things.  My RA (resident adviser) is really nice and it's nice to feel that someone is looking out for me again and pushing...

His love overflows (poem from awhile ago): There is a man named Jesus. He cried and He died on the cross, for you and me. His love overflows for us. He died to bring justice. He rose again to free us. Jesus is alive! It is Him, the Son of God who is glorified! He took our shame and our pain, all our punishment on Himself. He deemed it all worth it, because He would have us. He took away our sin so that He could carry us in. In this, we can be one in our eternal home. All glory to you God.  Amen.   : ) 

Look Deeper Poem (from awhile ago): There once was a man. Homeless was he. Maybe some thought him scary-- ragged clothes, a few crooked teeth. But if only they'd look underneath. They'd see a human being with the same wants and needs as any other. Wanting a place to call home, a hot meal, and a warm bed. We all desire friendship. We need one another. We can't be frightened by life's circumstances. If one has fallen, he can be picked up. If one is up, he may be pushed down. Do what you can.  Do good and not harm. Help those who are down. Draw near to the One who loves us all-- Our heavenly Father who will provide. God, make us lovely inside. I love and praise you God, Amen. : )  

So... I was just hanging out in the park by the waterfront here (Library Park).  It was pretty nice although kind of windy and cloudy.  I practiced guitar and played a couple of songs for my friend Destiny on the phone.  She is my good friend.  She liked the songs I played.  I was working on my singing too so that it's louder over the guitar.  It was nice.  Then I had to go to the bathroom, so I went to the gas station across the street.  I saw some kind of down and out looking men too, so after I went to the bathroom I bought some beef jerky, cheesy chips, and sunflower seeds.  Then I went out to the guys and asked if they needed any food.  They were all, "Sure : ) "  So I showed them what I got and told them to share and share alike.  Then I said "God bless you." and I really meant it.  They said "God bless you."  Like with emphasis on the 'you' and it was sweet.  It reminded me, 'Oh yeah, I'm doing good here ...

Give Way -- Poem (about a month ago) I want to give my moments away and forget about myself. Sweet memories form in the smile of a child. Giving others my time, makes my time more worthwhile. How great it is to help those who can't repay you. I know that the Lord will sustain, it is freeing to live in His light. Let us be filled with gladness, as we work with joy, from the leading of His Spirit. I want to worship Him! Catch the fire, let Him take your breath away. Spend a moment for the life of another. Your moments will become fuller and blessed. Let us live for His glory and share our lives as part of a bigger story. Lord fill us to the full!  My cup overflows. I love and praise you God.  Amen.

Inspired (Poem)  --from like a month ago God is filling me with sunshine, on the inside. There's no way I could do this myself.  He is shining His light into me.   I want to be holy,  set apart and set free.   Lord, may I be captivated by your beauty. May I be changed by you.   Oh how sweet it is to be loved by You. I love to love on your people. When I am open to love and serve others, it changes me.   It shows me a whole other side of life.   I'm starting to see that life is worth living. A new day is rising... I see the sun shining.   Life isn't about living to die, but living to live; right here, right now.   Lord, help me to live Your way and not mine. I love and praise you God, Amen.  

Hello.  : ) Well, I'm tired.  I feel like staying up late though because I've had two overnight shifts at work in a row.  I was just looking at scholarship sites with regret because I should have been doing that more sooner.  If the scholarships I applied for come back with even half the eligible amount that'd be so great!  I want to know more about my work-study job that I got.  I'm so glad I got that!  I'm scared to apply for loans.  I'll have to see how that works with work-study.  Overall I am very blessed to even get all the financial help that I'm receiving.           You know I commented that thing on the Messy Mondays site?  Well I got a comment on it "holy bananas you wrote a lot."  What does that even mean?  Does all that I said not even matter to the point you only notice how much I commented?  I'm passionate about peace and people listening to each other.  I want people to try ...

"The mantra of evolution...simple to complex."  --but even a single cell is complex.  Fossil record shows no life to a lot of life at once.  If only people could look and see without assuming that'd be really good. Evolution demands trillions of missing links......... have you ever seen an animal like half-dog half-cat?  No. etc. More on fossil record...from an online article: -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------"Group after group appears in the fossil record without any evidence of evolutionary ancestors. Paleontology attempts to explain this fact by saying that the fossil record is incomplete and that millions of years passed between the deposition of different layers. During these times, new creatures supposedly evolved. This view of an incomplete fossil record is essential if evolution is to be considered a viable theory. Darwin admits,  "We have seen in the last chapter that whole gro...

Some quotes I like from lately, etc: So true. -- "We are so obsessed with doing that we have no time and no imagination left for being. As a result, men are valued not for what they are but for what they do or what they have - for their usefulness." -Thomas Merton   Philippians 1:3 to all you whom I love in  my life!    --from Elliot Menge (my brother from Honor Academy's wall on FB)  Philippians 1:3 --I thank my God every time I remember you.   I like this verse Philippians 1:6  "...He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."   Average dinosaur size was the size of a pony... and a lot were the size of chickens and like birds  --from Institute for Creation Research.   If I ever named my kid Levi, I'd call him Leviathan sometimes and say, "Woah, you're so crazy, you can breathe fire!" if he was getting riled up.  : )  --me ---I like to look on my friends' walls...

I just watched a bunch of "Messy Mondays" clips by Blimeycow.  They are so funny and it makes fun of all the stupid things that we do so that we can move on and make more of our lives.  Below it someone had started the typical ragging on Christians for their beliefs and calling us stupid, etc.  So, I wrote this below that and I genuinely mean it.: You know, no one ever really gets their questions answered like below.  It's usually just a way to spew anger.  But I can tell that you do have questions.  You have a right to be angry that things don't always make sense, but learn to express it in a way to help resolve things.  Talk to someone you can trust who believes in God and will tell you why they do, etc, and who will be able to handle you saying, "You know, I'm angry and confused over this stuff and I just want some answers."  Don't be afraid to just ask and be open to new ideas.  This can help open your eyes and bring healing.   ...

Good morning!        Ah ha ha  : )  Now I guess it technically is morning.  These past few days have been kind of whirry and confusing.  I had my first overnight cleaning at the group home on Saturday.  It was good, but my Sunday was pretty confusing.  One of the bathrooms at church was a little dirty and I thought, "Oh no, do I have to clean it?"  Ha ha.           Then there was Monday.  I got to spend it with some wonderful family of mine-- my aunt Christine, cousin Becky, and cousin Livy.  We had a sleepover the night before with my sister there as well.  My cousin was over for part of the evening too, studying Spanish from college!  She bought her first car.  We saw it Monday morning.  What an exciting life change to see in the family, (people buying cars, learning different languages, going to college, etc.)  It was really good to have some quality time hanging out...