Redeemed

Good evening, It is a quiet night.  I have recently moved into a new place.  I am enjoying being on my own, although it can be lonely at times.  I just did a few dishes and tidied up.  I enjoy having a quiet space to myself to clear my thoughts.  I tend to overstress so it is good to take breaks.  I recently joined Tae Kwon Do and that has been a really good outlet for me.  It feels good to be working toward new goals and learning new things.  I'm a process of growth there is happiness.  I am also getting into a routine of a new job I started.  I'm having to learn to balance this new responsibility without taking too much on at my other job.  I got to meet a friend at a coffee shop today which was refreshing.  I talked about finding it really hard to rely on other people and taking on a lot of anxiety.  I think I have the anxiety because it is a mental process I do of taking it on.  It may be my tendency but it is an external stress that I am internalizing.  The good pa

"My name is DJ Jazzy Jazz (aka Jasmine), and I like Goats!"  --This is how I introduced myself at the dinner table tonight.-- "You can't introduce yourself like that and not do the thing..." -other staff. Cue the faux beat boxing, "Boots and cats and boots and cats.  Bts cts. Bts cts."  And the children become quiet and confused... wha?  "Jasmine, tell us your dream about goats!" -other staff. "I want to have goats that go on a trampoline!" -me Such is one of the many interesting conversations that occur at the youth shelter where I work.  It goes by many names... Emergency Shelter Program, Youth Crisis Shelter, Youth Shelter... et cetera. There are some days that push me beyond my limit.  Days I am like - Why. Is. This. My. Life. ? ? ? And there are days where I feel, "This moment is what it is about.  This is why I am in it.  It's worth it for this moment."  Is that the way parenting goes?  I feel I