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Good evening y'all,

It has been a long day, but it has gone by fast.  Sort of ironic.  I'm sitting at home trying to get some rest from this cold that's clinging to me like a crawfish...??  I know I've been at work too long when I start sounding out words in my head that I see--like the word, Th-i-n-k-ing.  Or I start saying the words that way to adults when they ask me a question.

This 2016-17 school year I am a LITERACY TUTOR in AmeriCorps.  It sounds kind of fancy when you put it that way.  I spend my days working one-on-one with about 16 different students on various reading interventions.  We work on short reading passages or blending together small words.  This also includes a lot of paperwork, data entry, prep work, bribing and coaxing via small toys, candy, and cracker items.  It should involve a lot more praise than scolding, more high-fives than head-shaking, and you get the picture.  The work is often rewarding, but also where I want to bang my head agains…

In the Quiet...

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Greetings,

I write this while chilling outat home with the dog (Cubbie)
lightly snoring, hearing the clock ticking in the quiet, and sitting in an office chair at the kitchen table as it is more comfortable than a regular chair.  I'm wearing my comfortable bright pink plaid flannel shirt.  I just ate a warmchicken pot pie from Lueken's grocery store and drank some hot chocolate.  I am so gratefulfor quiet moments like these.  They are rare.

I am learning to really enjoy the simple things in life.  Mmm good morning coffee and a bowl of oatmeal, seeing a sunrise, a good hug from a loved one.  There's times when I hide in my little office space and feel pretty overwhelmed.  Some jobs really take a lot out of me.  It is stretching me beyond myself.  That is a good thing, but it is also challenging.

I'm starting to settle into the routine of adult life a little better.  Get to places on time, make lists, write down dates in calendars, schedule appointments, enjoy a good …

Summer Update

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Hello,

I hope this finds you well.  It has been a fairly busy summer for me since I began work at Camp Oak Hills this June.  I have really enjoyed working as a kitchen assistant at the camp.  We have had a few weeks of campers now.  There is a lot of work to be done and it can be a challenge to finish our tasks.

We have gotten a few volunteers that come in to help serve.  They help in many areas at the camp including our kitchen.  This helps relieve some of the crunch-time stress before meals.  I can end up being someone that worries a lot.  I will be worried about having enough noodles or just trying to keep up with things.  It is these small things that end up stressing me out.  I have to be reminded to take a break.

I ended up injuring my knee one day on accident.  I went in for it but I kept hoping it would get better with time.  I did need to go in again and the MRI showed I had a tear in my knee cartilage.  If I am on my feet a lot I need to take a break and sit down.  I also …

To my broken brothers and sisters,

Just Wishing...
I wish that I could pour healing words into you, reaching to the bottom of your soul. Like a cup of warm cocoa on a cold winter's day, the warmth goes in your belly and straight down to your toes.
I wish I could cover you in love like a grandmother's quilt keeping you safe and warm at night— like a caring embrace, that takes away the shivers.
I want to take away the aching pain that naws at your weary soul. I want to wipe away the tears that you hide and soothe those wounds that cut so deep inside.
I have a mothering heart, it hurts to see the pain I cannot mend. I don't want to look away, I don't want to act like all is well and play pretend.
I see your hurt, I see your heart, and I want you to know that you are loved. If it's all I have to give, it's this knowledge from above, that God sees it all and God feels it too. This is the way that I can feel for you.
I pray that you hold on and find that soul-quenching love in the God o…

God my HEALER (heartsick) . . .

          This poem is kind of an accumulation of things I am grieving for and how I feel.  I like to think that it's okay to express emotions like the psalms.  I am also stressing about a paper, so this was a short break.  I have been struggling with pain from the past.  Sometimes I don't understand why people hurt others so much, but most of the time I don't think that they mean to do so.  We all learn to cope in different ways.  Some ways are VERY unhealthy. . . I have learned through good and bad experiences.  Thank you to God who carries me through.  


Heartsick . . .
When you love someone so much, that it drips out of your soul, When you love someone so much, and when they leave it makes a hole, When you love someone so much, that you are torn like fluttering ribbons, what is one to do?
When you love until it hurts, because you hurt for their hurts, When you love until you are sore, When you give and give until you can't give anymore... what's a soul to do?
W…

Closing in on the Finish Line (Graduation)...

Hello,
Life has been busy lately, as it never does seem to slow down.  There are times when I need to step back and deflate a little bit.  Time to think and process.  This is one of those times.
This year is going by so fast.  It is my senior year of college at Oak Hills.  It's the cliche of,"the time of your life," but it feels normal.  It has been difficult but very good at the same time.  This truly is a unique season in life to be surrounded by so many peers living in one space, sharing our experience in community.  Each person has their own unique story, but we all share common struggles and joys.  
As this season of my life is coming to a close I have been more proactive in being involved with others here.  At times I get so focused on getting things done, homework, etc. that I forget to invest in relationships and even in myself.  I can see how people involved in ministry can become so burnt out.  It's not possible to help others without being filled up yours…

Grateful...

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Greetings,

It's been a while.  I do journal a lot, but I haven't blogged lately.  I'm learning that I need to pour out and share about my life.  I may be one small person with a seemingly insignificant life, but I am still able to make a difference.  "Small acts with great love."...Mother Theresa.

It's becoming winter in Minnesota, freshly fallen snow outside here which is our trademark.  I'm on the Oak Hills campus where I was cuddled up to the propane fireplace which at least looks real.  I'll take what I can get.  It's pretty nice to go to a school where you can cuddle up by a fireplace in a blanket in a public building.  This place has become my home.

I think wherever you go, it becomes part of you and you become part of it.  You never stay the same.  I will always have a little bit of Texas in me with the heat, red dirt, Indian paintbrushes and other beautiful flowers, and all the beautiful friendships I made there.  I think you can find be…